Kate Moss was the face of the 1990s. She began modeling at age 15 and, soon after appearing on the cover of The Face magazine, was launched into the stratosphere of Calvin Klein Jeans model. The rest is, of course, waify and hallow-eyed history. But Moss is now opening up about her early years and revealing that they weren’t half as beautiful as one would think.
Moss shares her famous visage on the December cover of Vanity Fair magazine and, inside, she gets really real with interviewer James Fox — revealing that her teenage years were full of anxiety and trauma.
“I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts,” says Moss of her famous Calvin Klein shoot, topless and straddling Mark Wahlberg. “It didn’t feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn’t like it. I couldn’t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die … It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally [in modeling]. There’s a massive pressure to do what you have to do. I was really little, and I was going to work with Steven Meisel. It was just really weird — a stretch limo coming to pick you up from work. I didn’t like it. But it was work, and I had to do it.”
Moss appears totally comfortable with nude and topless shots these days — in fact, she even bares her chest for this Vanity Fair spread, which you can see after the jump — but she says that while racy shots made her famous, doing them was terrible for her as a teenager.
Moss tells the magazine, “I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would feel really weird. But they were like, ‘If you don’t do it, then we’re not going to book you again.’ I never felt very comfortable about it. I hated my boobs! Because I was flat-chested. And I had a big mole on one. That picture of me running down the beach—I’ll never forget doing that, because I made the hairdresser, who was the only man on the shoot, turn his back.”
Moss also reveals that she hated becoming the poster child for “heroin chic,” and being called anorexic.
“I had never even taken heroin—it was nothing to do with me at all,” Moss tells the magazine. “At that time, I was staying at a B and B in Milan, and you’d get home from work and there was no food. You’d get to work in the morning, there was no food. Nobody took you out for lunch when I started. Carla Bruni took me out for lunch once. She was really nice. Otherwise, you don’t get fed. But I was never anorexic. They knew it wasn’t true—otherwise I wouldn’t be able to work.”
So who got her through this dark period of life? Why, Johnny Depp of course.
“There’s nobody that’s ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit. I believed what he said,” Moss says. “Like if I said, ‘What do I do?,’ he’d tell me. And that’s what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust. Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears!”
And sadly, I shall never be able to make fun of Moss again.